Week is almost over.
Cuba is almost here.
Stress has almost dissipated.
Sonic Youth is depressing.
I'm sleepy.
Need a guy to make-out with.
God damn.
I've been spending hours cleaning and organizing my room.
I've got so much stuff, but it's all intermingled with rubbish and the like. It's starting to look good though. I've been working on it last night and this night.
But now I've got to finish 1984 for english class. And possibly do math. Heh.
This week is also waste reduction week at my school. I'm part of the environmental club, so i'm all in the planning and whatnot... but it's kind of scary seeing how the school reacts to the stuff we plan.
Also, thursday we're supposed to have it so that if you bring a mug into the cafeteria you get cheaper coffee, so this will reduce the paper cup waste that the coffee normally goes into... but after we went around to the classes, the cafeteria ladies came up to us and were all "oh, by the way, we're not doing that cheaper coffee thing anymore."
Fuck that. Hell yes they are. Lol, which means we have to, at some point before thursday, go down and harrass them.
Fun and joy.
Anyway. I kind of feel like I have to take care of everything... it sucks. Remind me to stay out of this stuff next time the environmental club is doing something.
I can't wait for this week to end. I hope it ends well.
I hope everyone had a super awesome Easter.
Mine was excellent. I went to my cousins baptism, then saw a free movie, August Rush, with my friends, then went back to my friend Sara's house with her and my other friend Kristie and had some delicious dinner, then went to a convenience store and spent $33.70 on pure CANDY... :) then we went to her neighbors house to have a sleepover, where she is supposed to be cat sitting, also with her brother Jim, and had a Harry Potter marathon (we only got through 4 movies... i fell asleep after 2, and we had to watch 4 in the morning... which i also slept through lol)... and while we were doing that we made DESSERT SUSHI with all our candy.
It was beautiful.
=D
Then in the morning we went back to Sara's house, wrote some songs about Harry Potter lol, then went to Kristie's and watched the fifth movie... and then I got picked up by my parents who were coming back from work.
And my friends in Costa Rica are coming back! yay.
I'm listening to The Sword.
Cause it's awesome.
To the possum.
Also... I can recite pi up to the 80th decimal place. Cause I'm a nerd.
:D
Today... I went into my english class, even though I really didn't want to. There weren't many people there, cause I dunno why. Anyway, I was sitting on one side of the class, with everyone else on the other side... cause all my friends are on trips or were doing this Peerleading thing, or stage crew for the assembly that was going on...
Well, eventually Liam came, but I dunno, I always find it weird to talk to him whenever the english smart kids are around (because unfortunately I thought it would be fun to try enriched english.... the class is okay, teacher and students not so much... heh, well, that's mean)... yeah, I don't like to talk to him around them because I feel like suddenly I'm being judged if I'm not saying something intelligent with every word that comes out of my mouth.
And they talk about all these like, world issues (cause they're all human rights kiddies) or some reference in culture, like an event or a festival or a piece of art or a play... I don't know, it's hard to explain. Do you know anyone where they are just always saying something that seems so sophisticated? I mean, they're always discussing these vague idea... or concepts... or theories. And a lot of the time there's mention of stuff happening in other countries.
Anyway, that's how they talk.... and they're always doing their work and whatever, so as you might see, it's a little hard for me to be myself around them.
I'm a rather cheerful person at heart, and one of the things I love to do is just take enjoyment from simple things... even if it's just a dumb pun or saying or something that might be really normal to be happening, but it's nice anyway, and no one really remembers it's a nice thing anymore, because it's just become routine or whatever. I dunno.
I have that problem where I find it hard to explain my thoughts. Heh.
Anyway, whenever I comment on something that I find amusing or happy or whatever, I don't think they really get it.
It's like, I'm more focused on the simple, while they're more focused on the complex. I guess that makes me sound dumb... but, I find... I don't know... there's no real value in worrying over the things they talk about.
I mean, I guess it's fun. But a lot of the time I just don't give a fuck about the topic. So, therefore I find it hard to form an opinion. This happens a lot in my english class as well. My teacher will ask me a question and I have no idea how to answer because the truth would be to say "I don't care," but nobody wants to hear that, so I stumble over myself trying to say something, anything. It's usually very worthless lol.
I also find that, a lot of the things that I would think are common sense, they tend to point out, as if it's this big new perspective they've figured out. I don't speak a lot in class discussions, sometimes not at all, and part of the reason why is because I don't think anything I'm ever thinking is relevant. But then I'll hear someone else say it, and I'm like "oh. I thought that was obvious," to myself. So then I start questioning whether or not I paid enough attention to that detail... but usually they just start jabbering on about more useless stuff in connection with the idea I thought was common sense... and I realize, they're just being english students. You know, always looking for hidden meaning in EVERYTHING. And symbolism. ugh.
Anyway... today, my english teacher was like "let's talk about the presentation from last class", which was my presentation. And then she looked at me all expectantly, like I might have all this interesting information to talk about.
First of all, what exactly is it you want me to say? I read the book. I talked about some themes in the presentation and gave a short synopsis. I also talked about the author.
I mean, what else do you want me to say, other than I liked it? Why I liked it? Because it was well-written and the plot interested me. There are no OTHER FACTORS adding into it. Why does there always have to be OTHER FACTORS?
So, she asked if anyone else had read the book, and one girl had. So then my teacher told us to have a discussion about the book.
Fucking hell.
A discussion? About fucking what? Cripes.
So after a big pause where I was wondering what the hell the rest of the class was going to be like and if it was going to be as irritating as this, the other girl spoke up and said when she read the book it reminded her of To Kill A Mockingbird.
Well. That's nice. I did not have that impression.
That topic finished in 2 seconds, there was some more pauses, and the other students would laugh when I was all "uhhhhh... okay". Not in a mean way. In a laughing with me kind of way. (lol, I don't want to make them sound mean, just annoyingly smart).
So, I found that all really stupid. I hate it when people are like "talk about this, now, go". Especially since it usually calls for more of that worthless mumbling about nothingness which is the classic skill of all english teachers.
Okay, that was mean. Not all english teachers... but quite a few of them. And it's not all worthless, or "nothingness"... but I think forcing me talk about something I have nothing to say is a lot like forcing out nothingness. And then contemplating it.
I don't know. I can't explain myself. I just can't wrap my head around the way these people are able to just pull these ideas out of their asses... or, I guess, out of the books. And what makes one idea so much better than another?
Anyway. I guess it's clear to see this type of thing has constantly been irking the shit out of me lol.
Enriched english is a good class when we're talking about stuff that isn't general or vague. I hate how we're supposed to be like, "Yes, and what about this notion of 'blanketyblankblank'... I thought it was interesting the way they portrayed it through the blah blah blah...". Or one of those really convenient ideas that you can apply to basically anything at all if you try hard enough because it's just THAT general.
Seriously.
I'll admit sometimes it's interesting.
But sometimes it's just dumb. So shut the fuck up. Already.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0X9PlA8Uob8&feature=related
Less Talk More Rokk by Freezepop.
:D
also... Happy Saint Patricks Day. It's a good day to be irish today.
My morning sucked terribly however. Couldn't get to sleep til about 5ish. No clue why. Then cause I had so little sleep my fucking eyes were as sore as my muscles, which I strained from dancing too much on saturday at this old people saint patties day party my parents wanted me to go to lol. Wasn't too bad, as can be deduced from my apparently crazy dancing. My family was all there, which made is better (fun cousins to see), and they're all slightly irish, or just party-types, so there they all were drinking and dancing. It was good. No drunken fights, just drunken happiness. :)
But back to my eyes. Bloody evil, this morning. And my right eye was watering like it had a garden to desperately save or something. On my lower lid. Heh.
I think it's cause I'm borderline glaucoma.
I think having that makes you teary-eyed-ish or something like that. It's a symptom or whatever.
Or maybe I'm just making it all up in my head lol. I'm too lazy to look it up.
Dreading tomorrow though. English class first thing, with a pres, and an essay due. Which is going to get handed in late. Cause no one deserves anything if they ask for it the first class back after March Break.
Silly ducks.
